CAUTION: Depressing

Some of you may know this, some of you may not, but Sophia and I are no longer a couple. This was a decision that I feel I needed to make, involving the change in my life. I'm changing, I'm quitting bad habits, becoming more hygenically concious, hell I'm even going to the Y to work out, trying to get into shape for once.

If any of you feel you need to know the reason I made this decision, then ask Sophia, because I'm not talking about it anymore after I'm done writing this blog. There is one reason I made this decision that I will relay to those few people who read this blog. I used to date someone, some of you know her, actually probably all of you know her, but I have recently realized that my feelings for her are still there, and that they havn't deteriated over the six months we have been apart. She knows this, I told her how I felt about her still, even though I have no idea how she feels about me now, as the end of our relationship was her idea. I still think that it can work, because no matter how I feel, if we are together or talking or whatever, she always manages to make me laugh and feel happy, which is good because I'm not really happy very often. I know that I can't always make her laugh, but if I do, it is the best feeling I have ever had. Lately the only time I've felt happy is when I've gone out for walks at around 11 the past few days, just walking around by myself, thinking about what I'm supposed to do. Maybe we aren't supposed to be together, maybe she really doesn't want to be with me anymore, but even that won't change how I feel.